The Book that was just for me.

Most of you who read this blog know that I'm a Mormon. If you didn't know...well surprise I'm a Mormon. Which probably isn't that surprising. This past Sunday I was asked to team teach a lesson on the Book of Mormon, at the last minute. One thing that people may not know about me is that I actually love teaching, which may surprise some people. I love teaching lessons on Sunday because I learn so much as I prepare to teach and it's always amazing to see how the Holy Ghost moves the lesson to what people in the class need to hear or learn. That's why I like teaching. I don't really like standing up in front of people and having so many sets of eyes staring at me.

I got to teach the last portion of the lesson.  It was based off of an Ensign article for the month of January "The Converting Power of the Book of Mormon." by Kevin S. Hamilton. Right before the lesson started I felt like I should show two Book of Mormon's that I had with me. One I had brought specifically for the lesson the other I usually have with me wherever I go.

A couple of years ago I was given a paperback copy of The Book Of Mormon, told to write my testimony in it and give it away to someone. So I did...well I wrote my testimony in it but I still haven't given it away. For the most part wherever I have gone in the past couple of years this copy of The Book of Mormon has gone with me. To school, to another country, to work. It's been with me pretty much everywhere, but I never felt like I should give it away, I always felt like I needed it. Which seems silly because I have a copy of the Book of Mormon on my phone, which goes with me pretty much everywhere as well.


So I showed the class these two Book of Mormons. They looked different on the outside but on the inside they both taught the same thing. After the lesson one of the Relief Society Sisters (The women's organization in my church) came up to me and said " You know I just got the feeling that the reason you haven't given that book away is because it was meant for you. You needed it."

This lady couldn't have known how many times that exact same thought had come into my mind. She couldn't have known how crazy the past couple of years had been for me. She couldn't have known that throughout the time that I had carried that book that I had begun to doubt the existence of a God.
She couldn't have known any of these things but she had felt that the reason I had never given that Book of Mormon away was because I needed it. Isn't that amazing?

God is truly omniscient. He knows everything. He cared enough about me to have me carry a book around that testified of Him and his Son, even at a time when I wasn't sure if anything I had ever learned about God was true. It was a book meant just for me.  Maybe to some of you this seems silly and not amazing at all, but to me it showed me that God truly loves and cares about me and that he never truly left me. And I know that wherever you are in life God feels the same way about you. He loves you and he wants you to make it back home to Him!