I don't write this to make anyone feel bad for me. To me it is just a fact of my life. They divorced when I was very little. I honestly don't have a single tangible memory of when they were actually married. Again I don't write this to make anyone feel sad. To me being so young was actually a blessing. I count it as a great blessing. I don't have anything to feel bad about losing. I have no good or bad memories of them together. I feel worse for others who can remember what it was like when there parents were married, I feel like the older a person is when their parents divorce, the harder it is to deal with. The more hurt you feel.
I am not saying that my parents divorce didn't affect me. Because it definitely did. How could it not? Every other weekend I went to a different house. Holiday's were always split up between each side. I imagine it's like getting in-laws, except when your four. Some things about this arrangement were totally awesome! One Christmas I opened up a fairy toy at my mom's house and then another one later that day at my dad's house. I was pretty sure I was Santa's favorite person in the world.
I read a blog post about children of divorce. It talked about things a person should know if they were in a relationship with a child of divorce. As I read it I kept thinking Does this describe me? And with most of them the answer was No. Or at least I think they are a no.
I guess my point is that no one is going to fit into the same box, even if they have experienced the same or similar things in life, because we all handle things differently. While I feel like I can connect with and understand someone better who grew up with divorced parents, me and that person are still different. We don't necessarily fit in the same mold. It's like that piece of clothing that says " One size fits all". One size is never going to fit every single person in the world, unless they invent some cool type of fabric....which would be pretty sweet.
People often think because you go through something in life you should be a certain way. This could be with anything: divorce, depression, death of a loved one. Just because my parents were divorced does not mean I am afraid of commitment or marriage. Honestly I am a cheesy hopeless romantic and I do believe that you can find someone to spend forever with and be perfectly happy. Perfect happiness though doesn't always mean that everything will always be easy because it won't. Even in fairy tales bad things happen. Take any of the fairy tales you heard growing up and they are honestly not very swell and dandy all of the time. In fact sometimes they are down right scary.
Whatever happens in this life it's okay to be who you truly are. There may be times of despair where it seems that there is not even the slightest bit of sunlight but you can get through it! No matter what!
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