Motes and Beams

I love going to church! It's an amazing place where you can feel of the Saviors love and learn about the gospel. It's a wonderful place to be, but sometimes I wish people were more real. Let's just all admit it right here and right now, we put on this grand show to make people believe that everything is alright. We don't want to be judged or considered weak or have people think we are crazy.

But then it gets worse because we go to church and it seems like everyone else around us is perfectly okay. And then you start to feel like a complete failure again! See, most human beings have this problem with vulnerability. We don't want others to know how vulnerable we are, but being vulnerable isn't a bad thing.

I didn't learn that until I started bawling in front of one-hundred people. There was literally about one hundred people watching me sob. And my nose kept running and I didn't have enough tissues. It was not fun and after I had finally stopped crying, which took the better part of an hour, everyone kept coming up to me and giving me hugs. If you want hugs just start crying in front of a bunch of Mormons and they will magically appear ;).  But after this happened I was so ashamed of myself. I wished I could take back that moment but I couldn't. I was so afraid of what people would think of me. I was so afraid that they would all stop talking to me. See how Satan puts those little lies into your head. He wants us to be miserable and keep everything inside, and let people think that you are perfectly fine when you're not.

I learned a very important lesson that day, God doesn't want us to go through things alone, if he did there would only be one human living on the earth at a time. We are meant to help each other.

So back to that horrible time when I couldn't stop crying, it turned out exactly opposite of what I thought would happen. People didn't stop talking to me because I was a big crybaby, instead they just loved me for me. And that helped a TON! Because lets face it we all want to be accepted.

I have heard it said that Church isn't for the healthy it is for the sick. We all make mistakes, we all struggle, and sometimes we have a hard time having the faith that we need.

We all have motes and beams in our eyes (Matthew 7:3), but that doesn't mean we can't help each other.