So guess what? I love the scriptures!!! I really really do! I have so many favorite stories but I think my favorite is the one about Gideon in the Old Testament. He had so much faith! I have been thinking about faith a lot lately. For Gideon he wasn't sure about a decision he was making, which was a pretty big decision so he prayed for God to help him to know that the decisions he was about to make was God's will and not his own and God answered him. Sometimes God answers prayers quickly, sometimes they take a while, and sometimes it takes a really long while and sometimes they don't come at all! I don't think how fast God answers our prayers has anything to do with how much faith we have, the story of Enos in the Book of Mormon shows us this. Enos prayed all night and all day for many different things one of these things was that the Lamanites might one day be able to read the Book of Mormon, and guess what Enos's prayer was answered but it took a couple of thousand years. I had an experience once were I prayed for something really hard, I begged my Heavenly Father for it, I don't know if I have ever prayed for something so hard. I knew I had the faith too and I felt like I had tried everything I could for Heavenly father to be able to bless me with it, but nothing happened. I couldn't help but think
Is my Faith not great enough? I had been taught my entire life that if I had the faith of a mustard seed I could move mountains, was my faith not even as big as a mustard seed?
I started studying faith in the scriptures, I wanted to know how I could have more faith in Christ. I learned that Faith is having confidence in the Lord. I thought I had confidence in him but now I wasn't so sure. Then a miracle happened just when I was questioning if I even had any faith a wonderful inspired institute teacher taught me a lesson about faith. He told a story similar to what had happened to me and then he said something that I needed to hear at that moment " If God wants you to move that mountain you will move the mountain". And just like I learned that Faith is not talking God into doing my will but me figuring out what his will is and having a desire to do his will, having my will become the same as his. Because really our will is the only thing that we can give to God that isn't something that is already his. Eventually my prayer was answered but I had to wait, and looking back at it now it really wasn't that long of a wait but in the moment it seemed like an eternity. This is why I love the scriptures, as I read the stories in them I see that the people who lived back then really are not that different then me, they struggled with the same things. Even though our worlds are completely different I can learn from their struggles and trials how to deal with my own. I am so very grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who knows me!
Love Ashley
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